Rock Stars and Mom’s Day

Mother’s Day for me was good.

We did our normal Sunday morning routine of breakfast then out the door to church.

Danny’s message was about Hannah [1 Samuel], her infertility, and how she cried out to God asking for a child. For me, as for many women who have struggled with infertility, that story stirs a million emotions of the desperation I once felt. And while I’m so thankful to be free from that bondage, the feelings are still too easily recalled.

I spent the majority of the service praying for those women who are currently in that state of painful desperation.

Because I know how much it sucks.

And how much can be learned and gained from the experience when you surrender to God’s plans.

Back to the service – I was on the verge of tears as it was. Then Ryan, our worship leader (“the other Ryan”), sings a song that he wrote for his Mom.

It wouldn’t have been that big of a deal except that Ryan is adopted as well. And the lyrics of the song clearly reflected that fact.

[That's his Mom in the foreground of this picture.]

And maybe not such a big deal if I hadn’t been standing next to Lacy who is in our Life Group and  who adopted 2 children from the same agency we did.

And maybe not so bad if X hadn’t been one of the children who came walking up the isles to hand out roses to all the Moms.

Yeah, I pretty much lost it. But I certainly wasn’t the only one. As I looked around tears ran down several faces.

Which is what makes Ryan a Rock Star – having the courage and amazing audacity to write and sing such an awesome song to his Mom – and make everyone cry over it. It was really awesome. Except the crying part…..I really don’t like crying in front of so many people.

And I thought that I’d have myself totally under control for the second service since I had already heard it once – nope. More tears. I thought geez – this is ridiculous – what is wrong with me?

I think I really needed to see and hear a success story like that because the day had started and was progressing to be a major X drama day.

Adoptive Mother or not – surely I’m not the only Mom out there who needs to know every now and then that “it’s all worth it” as his song says.

Despite all that – I was in good spirits as we went to Fralo’s [my favorite local pizza and byob joint] for lunch.

Ryan gave me 3 presents – always good for the spirit.

It was 3 new charms for my James Avery charm bracelet.

I’m pretty sure that the guitar charm is a friendly reminder that I need to get back in to playing my guitar again.

And I’m absolutely sure that no amount of drama can keep me from loving these kids.